Break My Fucking Heart

MAAAAN

2005-06-06T13:42:37Z

So me and Mikey went to the beach yesterday to get some shit for my marine bio project. It was such gayness! I dont care who the fuck you are, all seaweed looks the same. And it stunk up my car so bad you have no idea.

I put my seamonkeys in the water... yeah i dont see anything except for dirty water... stupid seamonkeys, i was expected so much better than some shit in the water.

Yeah so i was up all night last night. got one hour of sleep. Talked to Nick at like 2 and then again at like 430 am haha. we were both working on an essay.

I got a fish too, i told my dad iw as going out for school supplies and came back with a fish. His name is Dillinger and Shayna wants to eat him unfortunately. =( It's okay, ill make fish tacos out of Tapatio. MUAH HA HA.

I get paid today. I'm going to pay back all the people i owe money to. yuck. only 3 weeks until i go to europe. oh man. =( sadness. whatev, not like i have anyone to come home to. blah! It's alright though, me and Jess will get reaaaaal comfortable together (not me, my twin Jessica wheldon). woo hoo.

Jessica

The Bright Side Of Suffering

2005-06-01T07:06:36Z

i swear that if i could
i'd take it all
take it all away
all the sorrow and the pain

i'm not responsible
you always say
but you need your space
and this always ends the same

hey, is your heart still beating?
i can't stop the bleeding
i've lost you completely

hey, gather all the heartache
i'll hold it in my hand
just to lose it all again

if there's a bright side
to this suffering
can you help me see?
it's getting harder to believe

you always said this
would not last long
but it's gone on and on and on
and i just can't make it stop

hey, is your heart still beating?
i can't stop the bleeding
i've lost you completely

hey, gather all the heartache
i'll hold it in my hand
just to lose it all again

they're right this time
i wont pretend to smile
because inside
i'm black and
i am hollow

this time you've
took this way too far [x5]

i'm sick
and tired
inside
i'm black and
i am hollow

i'm trying to find
what's missing form my life
and the tables have turned
this life is only temporary

I Will Wait For You Forever...

2005-05-29T13:50:48Z

So i went to emery last night. Invited George but he didnt go. =(. I went with Sean and Kyle. It was alright. We met up with Anthony and Jon. Being at emery just... i dont know... I was overwhelmed with just this need to be... i dont even know how to even fuckin explain it.

I miss george, I just want to fuckin hang out with him. I want to say i miss him as a boyfriend, but i miss him a million times more as a friend and someone to talk to and make eachother laugh.

::Sigh::

It was nice though, I did get to hang out with Sean that i haven't hung out with in FOREVER. He's one of my real true friends. <333

Anyways it's 649 am and i hsave to be at work in five minutes.... i really need to quit, but ... err... my account is down to like fifty bucks. yikes.

Jessika

Ouch

2005-05-24T12:57:12Z

I went on a freakin' shopping spree. I almost spent every cent i had. Even bought myself a diamond ring. yikes... I'm stretching my ears. That hurts a little. I met Dan yesterday for the first time. He's cool. I got my hair did. blah. And I stopped by Mika's house and she was like WTF!!! haha. i win.

Maybe Love, will find us again, for there is always, tomorrow...

New Friends

2005-05-17T13:24:39Z

The other day I met this guy that goes to lakewood. He's so freakin' awesome! He's into some good ass music! (no not assmusic), Last night we went to starbucks and saw jeremy. I run into him EVERYWHERE. In fact i think he's stalking me. lol jk. But yeah then me and gerald went shopping and bought a bunch of clothes. woop woop! He had an extra ticket to Zao but =( i can't go on school nights.

I'm in love with my ipod... 1,000 songs and counting.. when i'm done with marco's cd collection, woooooahh man.

I miss marco talking to me on the phone gossiping and giving eachother advice =*( I needa haircut. And dye too. i'm going red..... sorta.. and i want a mullet (soooo not even kidding) lol.

JeXXica

blackvelvetskyz @ 2005-05-15T15:44:00

2005-05-15T22:49:45Z

I never should have let you go, promise me, you'll stay with me forever, forever.
I never should have let you go. Promise me, you'll stay with me forever, forever!

I'm glad i'm talking to you again. =)

yesterday was fun. after work i me and mikey (punkin) went to wally mart and bought richard's present then we nt to the 99 cent store and bought him a chippendales calendar. haha. the party was alright, me and mikey mostly ate and ate until we threwup all over eachother. We played lots of ping pong too. lol.

I'm so glad we're friends, mikey <333333

DISNEYLAND. WHOEVER WANTS TO GO. WE'RE GOING TO TAKE AN ARMY OF PEOPLE.

If looks could kill you'd be a murderer

2005-05-11T01:08:49Z

HAPPY BIRFDAY JUSTIN. (if you're reading this).

I'm so glad i'm talking to mikey again. He was such a good friend, and i'm glad that things are clear between us. =) . Things are okay. I'm studying for my algebra test. (i need the grade more than anything)

blah

The band Aiden reminds me of my chemical romance but really really good!
lol

Are you There ?

2005-05-10T07:10:14Z

I'm glad pride day is coming up... =)

I took my computer to andy's house and got his dad to hook me up with mac os X and all this fucking crazy shit. He put new memory in my comp and made it like it's brand new. I now have my ipod hooked up to this thing, and i fucking LOVE it . haha i'm downloading music like woah.

I'm getting my ears pierced this weekend hopefully. We're having a big party for Richard's birthday. I'm glad for them, they haven't been around friends in a long time.

my relationship with my parents has mended. I'm so glad because for a while it was like i was a ghost in this house. I tought my mom how to crochet and make blankets. I gotta wake up early tomorrow and do my homework, but BLAH homework is lame. haha.

This school year is almost over. I can only wait. When summer comes around i have one month to relax and enjoy myself and kick off this stupid demo we're recording soon. We've gotta get that demo out before Bud and I Leave

Come Clean

2005-05-09T05:10:43Z

Today i bought an ipod. unfortunately it's not compatible with my computer. but i'm getting my comp upgraded so then it'll be fine.

shit happens. but i'm glad i'm starting to talk to my old friends. I'm glad shayna called me. It made my week a hell of a lot brighter even though the call was for a simple reason. Sometimes hearing familiar voices makes you happy.

The gay pride parade is coming up. I think i'm going to go alone this year. Even though last year's PRIDE parade marked mine and george's first date. That was honestly a day i will never forget. So much happened that afternoon it was amazing... haha.

Well now it's time to be honest to ourselves and one another,

I'm missing you a lot george... =/

Sing me something soft, sad and delicate, or loud and out of key, sing me anything

I want You To Know that.... I MISS YOUUU

2005-05-08T05:49:43Z

Today was meh. Worked all day. Came home, showered, went to the mallw ith dustin for mothers day present shopping (he ended up buying himself a HOTTOPIC SHIRT GODDAMMIT!!!!) lol. I bought my mom a necklace. =) i spend big bucks. Then afterwards i dropped off dustin at eric's house and then went to ryans and hung out with him for a while. He came back from chicago. Did you know they actually give out diplomas at hamburger university? i laughed so hard when i saw his! it says "BACHELOR DEGREE IN HAMBURGEROLOGY".

haha laaaaame. I'm so going to quit at the end of the summer. I don teven need a job haha. I have no one to spend my money on. =( but that's okay.

I'm so confused. Please someone tell me what the heck is going on....

just for tonight

2005-05-06T06:17:22Z

today sucked. boring.

tomorrow i might hang out with charles and have band practice which is refreshing since we finished Death 2 Camry !! the most coolest song EVER. lol . we have two songs so far:

1 Death 2 Camry
2 Giving Myself Away Through Goodbyes

and we're currently working on a song dustin wrote. the 2 we have so far was written by me.
=) happy happy

Nathan is being a poo. Ryan is being a bigger poo by not coming home until saturday. Katie... made me feel bad the other day. I dont think she knows it yet though. Dustin made me feel bad last night. but it's okay.

Charles called me today. =) we might chill tomorrow depending if he's busy or not. That crazy hottopic kid. boy i tell ya. oh yeah i forgot

ACROSS FIVE APRILS @ THE ALLEN THEATRE NIGGAS

June 6 i believe. i wouldn't miss that shit if my life depended on it.

Name taken coming up at chain.
Emery coming up at chain (,may 26?)

Killing Me Softly

2005-05-05T07:06:28Z

Yep...

Yep...

Went to school. Went to work. Drank a pot of coffee and called up dustin and chatted for a couple of hours. I'm so glad i have him. Seriously. If it wasnt' for him i'd probably be six feet under. It's nice to know someone out there really cares for you . =). I'm trying to hook him up with a female... any takers? hm...

Man work is so fun. I love just screwing around and getting paid for it. Like today... nathan asked me to get something out of the freezer.... yeah he locked me in there and turned off the lights... I almost cried cause that's my worst fear at work. Haha. They used to soak people and then throw them in the dark freezer. That's so fucked up. haha. Glad it wasn't me.

You know, work is the only place where i can be friends with a lot of those people. I mean like take my friend charles... he's a gangster "straight up from compton" haha and we're so chill together and he talked to me about his problems and we're close. can you imagine me friends with a gangster? haha. we're like complete opposites.

i'm scared to go to school tomorrow with the race riots. luckily i'm not black or mexican otherwise i'd be in a hell of a lot of trouble. =(.

Death 2 Camry

2005-05-04T04:51:12Z

Wow. our band is doing good. it makes me happy. As far as homework, i'm slowly catching up. but i dont know if i have enough time to really pull myself up. it's okay there's always next year.

tennis was fun today. Me and megan compared boob textures and felt up on eachother ! ewww ! haha and we have this new thing with everyone... we sock eachother in the vaginas.... wow that sounds like "nut checks" for guys. We are guys... that's pretty weird...

My mommy is home from the doctors... She's not doing so well so she can't work anymore. I'm scared cause my dad might be laid off AGAIN. my family probably wont be able to pay rent this month. or next... god that's a really really scary thought.

You had me at incoming message...

2005-05-02T06:10:26Z

Today I went to work at 630. Dealt with crap all day today. I dont know what it was about today. It just didnt feel complete. After work i went with Katie and her boyfriend to the mall. It feels so weird to be a third wheel. I mean, i'm happy for them yeah, but it just feels like i should have someone with me. I'm not used to this. I'm used to always being with someone and having everyone else be a third wheel. Seeing them holding hands in the car, and being happy, and having their stupid little arguments like couples do. It's pathetic yeah, but you miss it sometimes...

I bought Straylight Run today... I guess... I've heard this cd a million times... but i have no idea who owns it... i dont remember where i heard it from.... wtf. that's weird.

I've been reading a shitload of Battle Royale. There's 15 mangas. I've read 6 so far. I find no reason to have to go out and have fun, I'd rather read haha! See? I'm still the nerd i always have been. Mangas... pshhh fancy me reading those little asian comic books. but then again it is battle royale... the best fucking movie ever.

Sometimes you've got to learn to let go

(Sarcastic Goodbye) - Bleed the Dream

No one here is really brave
(They always think so small)
I know there's something out there more for me
This town just makes me hate the sky
(It's always gray outside)
And all I wanted was to pass you by

Why does my life just fall apart?
When I listen to my heart
You know I can't leave you behind
Just keep those memories in your mind

You know there's nothing left to prove
(And even if I could)
You know there's nothing I can do
This time I've got to walk away
(I don't belong here)
You know I'll think about it everyday

Why does my life just fall apart?
When I listen to my heart
You know I can't leave you behind
Just keep those memories in your mind

Sometimes you've got to learn to let go

Spending the night in the Emergency room...

2005-05-02T05:43:28Z

Today me and Kyle went to chain to get our tix for the next show wahoo! i bought a whole bunch so yeah, if you need one, better get it soon. I bought the bleed the dream cd today. I also bought the 18 visions cd. meh.

I went to a meeting today (haven't gone to one of those in years). It was quite an experience. I hung out with jose who told me all of his dirty little homosexual secrets haha.

The worst thing happened while i was there.. my grandma calls me and tells me to come straight to her house after it;s over. she NEVER does that.... So i panick a little. After the meeting I race home at a record speed and my grandma is at her door waiting for me and she tells me i have to go with them to the emergency room.

So I get scared...

She told me my mom couldn't breathe today so they went to the emergency room. Doctors were afraid to run tests on her because she's pregnant and they didnt want the radiation to hurt the baby so I spent all night there waiting for the doctors to decipher whether or not they should let my mother take the tests. They thought she had a blood clot in her lung. Oh my. Tests were negative though, but there is still the risk of the baby...

You know, george was right, although i dont get along with my mom 98% of the time, i do love her. I really do. And i mean, i was literally SCARED when I heard about my mom. Although I tell people many times i wish she would just *poof*. hmm...

My mom still can't breathe so she has to go back to the hospital again soon.

You've got everyone else convinced that you're alright

2005-04-29T01:15:49Z

Man it's weird it seemed like for a second all the couples broke up then got together within this past week... weirdness. I'm glad Lorin and Mat are together again. I love them (well mat is a poo, but that's okay). Not much with me. I freaked out today because i haven't done homework AGAIN!

OH YEAH OH YEAH BATTTTTTLEEE ROYALLLEEEEE

BATTLE ROYALE!

Battle royale is by far the most awesome movie ever made. I've started a battle royale trend at lakewood. haha. I gave george and abraham my copy of the movie, but that's okay i'll go find another one. I started reading the mangas of battle royale today... i finished 2 books within the school hours. that is fucking nuts haha. Everyone thinks i'm so crazy cause i love that movie so much! haha. can you blame me?

Okay so battle royale is about a class of 42 kids who is taken to an island and are given a collar that cannot be removed and a weapon. They have to play a game in which they must kill EVERYONE else within 3 days. There are danger zones and if they're caught in a danger zone at a certain time, then the collar will cause their heads to explode. The object of the game is to be the very last survivor on the island, and if there is anyone else alive at the end of the 3 days, then everyone's heads explode! If you're the only survivor, your only prize is to just go home.... FREAKING AWESOME!

^ Me and Lorin!

Cheer up Mr Incredible

2005-04-27T01:38:27Z

I feel really bad. Things aren't so well with a lot of couples nowadays although my last entry said they were. Dustin and his girlfriend are at a confused point right now. Katie is really stressed and what not, and for me? I'm just sittin around doing nothing a lot.

I can't wait for the show coming up!!! (alhtough it's stil a month away) we're gonna get so many peeps to go. Kevin, alex, me, dustin, bud, katie, KT, seth, oh man oh man. I can't wait oh no i can't.

Today we had band practice without alex. WE WERE DOING SO GOOD UNTIL OUR FUCKING PA BLEW OUT!!!!!! hhahahahaa poor bud, we'll have to chip in and buy another one for him.

Cheer up Dustin, things will get better I promise you that. Heartbreak isn't so bad afterall.

I remember when we would laugh all night
and nothing could stop us
moments shared we're picture perfect
memories remain

blackvelvetskyz @ 2005-04-25T18:48:00

2005-04-26T02:59:35Z

dear livejournal,

Okay. I didnt have the internet for a couple of weeks so here i am now. I've taken the time to rethink everything. Yes i know i'm sad, yes i know everything i've done wrong. But i'm finally trying to be happy again. By myself. Just forgetting about everyone else. Although yes, i will admit it, i miss george. I miss him a lot. If it were up to me i'd be with him. That's reality. But I guess regardless i can't be happy with anyone else unless i'm happy with myself. Which i'm very slowly trying to work towards. I got my report card... yeah i'm in big trouble, but that's okay, because i have another month and a half to make it up. And it's not the end of the world. I'm trying to look at things optimistically.

My mother is pregnant. the baby is due in november. She's moody as she's ever been. My dad is having his birthday party in a couple of weeks. that should be fun. I'm quitting my job soon. I need time to just be a home-person like i used to be. I miss being able to sleep in, and not worry about having to go to work and deal with a bunch of fat black women screaming that the fries aren't hot enough.

I'm getting ready for my trip to europe. Hopefully i find myself there. It's nice to go somewhere and leave everything behind for a short while. I'll be sending a bunch of you letters. (even if you hate me).

Yesterday i talked to an old friend (Redonna) and she helped me to realize that this isnt' the end. Even though it feels like it is, it really isn't. You'll always be with someone as long as you keep them in your heart. Sorry if i sound cliche. I'm just trying to be happy for everyone else. Things have been going great for everyone and i'm just laggin' behind, but that's okay too.

Katie and Ryan are doing awesome. And dustin just got a girlfriend that i absolutely adore. I'm really really happy for him that he can find someone who will treat him right. BFF!!! MO CHIP!

Band: we haven't practiced in a week or two, but Bud and I have been making some stuff up when i had the time. =)

Dear Livejournal

2005-04-16T06:25:59Z

Meh school sucks, life sucks. What's new?

Day of silence was fucking amazing. we had such a huge turn out and everyone had my ugly face on their t shirts. =). Unfortunately i had to break the day of silence due to my working that day, but hey, i gave it my all. I have been appointed president for the gay and straight alliance next year, and stevie is my vice president. awesomeness...

I'm fuckin scared... Tomorrow i have so much shit i needa take care of. I have work from 7 to whatever time, then i have to race home, take a shower, get ready, go to a barbeque, go to katie's house, film my project, come home, get ready, go to "dave's" house to see Pat's band (chaselb) and Nick's band play (plague). theeeeen before time runs out i have to race to ryan's to chill with some friends from work.

You know what i was thinking? smoking pot is really pointless. no matter how hard anyone has tried, i dont get high... i really dont. Ask Bud.... Maybe because i grew up around it so much that it has no effect... =/

Sunday: work, finish project, come home, be lonely, wish i was in your arms.

Just Light The Match & RUN

2005-04-14T06:58:12Z

Today was very weird...

Megan Murray knows why, so does katie.... OH that manson.... am i right? am i right?

Yeah once again i went to bed at 8 last night and woke up late for school this morning. Istill can't get myself out of bed. Things have been bugging a lot these past few days. Confused as to where i stand on everything. katie is right, i need to reevaluate myself and everyone i hang around. In fact, katie is now appointed to mark the course of my life from here on out. lol. whatever she says goes.

Todya was also crummy by nighttime... let's just say i was harrassed... and i dont know if i should tell anyone... Nothing that bad happened, but it was the close call..... ho hum..

Work was okay, I was attacked by two 12 year olds who wanted to know my age.... yeah.... so then i told the manager and had them kicked out of the store... fuckheads....

I love reading again... I know i know. but i'm becoming that nerd i was once upon a time... The one with the large ass backpack, a million books to carry, and the one who spends her lunchtime reading a nice book. I'm currently reading Dog Run by Arthur nersesian. Fucking good book... it's about a girl who is in an awful relationship where the guy doesn't do jack shit for her, and she comes home, fixes dinner, yells at him for not paying attention to her, and the realizes he was actually dead. Then as she tries to get in contact with people who knew her boyfriend, she finds out he lead a completely different life and that she never even knew him at all. Yeah... sexy sexy...

waiting for a phonecall...

I'm sick right now... it sucks... i lost my voice, but i guess it's okay considering tomorrow is the day of silence. hooray <33

I found out this really pretty girl at my work is a lesbian and wants to get with my friend becca

the drama in a mcdonalds

::Sigh::

2005-04-13T04:33:38Z

~ I thought a lot about you today, if you care ~

Minimum days aren't what they used to be. I came home... sat down on the couch and stared blankly at a black tv.... went to go visit ryan and tell him problems at work. came home.... slept.....

I went to sleep yesterday at 7ish and didnt wake up til 7 this morning. I even fell asleep in class too. I dont know why i've been so tired lately, i find it hell to get out of bed. =(

I miss katie... i really miss my katie... i miss the nights we cried over some stupid boys and we ended up watching movies all night long and ate a tub of ice cream, chocolate pudding, popcorn, a big mac, fries, cookies, whatever the fuck we canget our hands on. I miss the nights at her house while we danced to her kareoke machine haha. I miss knowing the fact i had her to count on no matter how hurt i was.

I love you katie, let's be close again.

And we can help eachother out and remember what it was like to have fun. =)

you wouldn't know love....

2005-04-12T02:44:23Z

yup yup duncan calls today. ASSHOLE. Saying stupid shit. fuck him seriously. ARGH screw him and everything that has to do with him.

today was very tiring... i had a lot of make up work i needed to take care of. Buuuut shit happens yeah? After school Sarah and I went to Del amo swap meet and got our nails done. haha omg omg sarah i hope you're reading this: remember LEE? the guy who did my nails? OMG FUCKING COMEDY! hahahahah and poor sar bear had her fingernails ripped off. they looked cute in the end though! mine are adorable <333 We saw Ryan ont he way to mcdonalds driving his asian mobile. =)

Omg i'm listening to cher right now! It tears my heart to hear it. Reminds me of... nevermind....

I dyed my hair again... got rid of the blonde... All black, just like it was before. =/ . I guess it's nice to have things the way they were before, right? Some things at least.

So europe... 2 months.... i can't wait. I need to get away from my house, away from long beach, no offense, but away from everyone in this fucking city. Maybe i'll find that i like it better in europe and i wont come back. that would be nice woudln't it? I bet you all would like that.

Day of Silence shirts come out tomorrow. I'm on the front with stevie and darcey. Haha darcey hits on me all crazy! lol she likes to snuggle with me. <33

well i'll be sulking around my room, someone call me if youre bored. dont know my number? i'm sure someone you know does.

XmeX

Object Permanence

2005-04-08T05:50:24Z

HEHE yesterday was chill, we went on a field trip to the aquarium and I talked with Robby Stephanie and Chuck. =) Robby made me get my picture taken as a snail.

Afterwards we had practice at dustins with the PA system. Pat didnt show up AGAIN that nigguh.

So then i Left.... and then went to the mall. Bought a cute shirt. Went to bed at 9.

__TODAY__

Ryan called me into work today. =( oh well, so right now it's 1048 and i'm doing homework. YUCK. I'm waiting for him to call me back. Tomorrow I may be going to chain to buy some tix. OH YEAH! Charles, and I might go to bleeding through together. Heck yeah!

um um um...

So i'm on my 4th cup of coffee.... i hope this is enough to keepme up.

Saturday=work, dinner, party Sunday=work, go to the mall with Nikita. <33

Let me see your Bootyhole!

WAOOOO

2005-04-06T06:29:39Z

Today was a pretty cool day. I woke up all extra happy. I didn't fall asleep in class, and I talked to Manson for a while. Lol he's such a flirt, i hate him! It was so funny, today Dustin came in to GSA LOL!!! and Darcey said he looked like mr incredible. haha.

Went to work today, Mr potato head was all sorts of cute. He has a hockey game right now, god that would fucking suck to play hockey this late at night. Wish i could go, but I have homework to do. Nikita and I are going to get our nails done together this weekend. I FUCKING HATE HER! i saw her nails and they had little broken heart designs. THAT'S MY THING! lol

I guess last night someone tried to steal my car. Luckily they ran when they saw my mom. It was like at 2 am. Argh. Crazy shit has been happening in my neighborhood, like the other day someone came into my cousin's house (4 streets away) with a butcher knife and tried to rob him. ... bad move considering he has a fuckin knife and gun collection and enough ammo to start a war in cuba. lol . I guess the guy who tried to rob him had some weird ass fucking cameras that recorded stuff outside of his house. Wtf is wrong with my neighborhood?

I can't wait for this weekend, it's gonna kick so much fucking ass. Tomorrow too! we have a field trip all day, and then after school ry is picking me up and we're gonna go cruisin to god knows where in that rice rocket. oh yeah and fucking I AM GHOST is at dipiazzas. Oh they're playing at Chain soon too! GO! EVERYONE JUST GO!

i'm on my 5th cup of coffee. Yum. Someone once told me that you always see bikers at starbucks because they're former alcoholics... I dont nkow what that has to do with anything buuut...

Bud wrote a really cool song (his billionth) I still think we sound too common, we need that fucking giangle, perhaps i'll weld one soon. then we shall be "original".

Stevie and I decided it would be fucking awesome if we got matching tattoos lol! a kiss mark on our buttcheek. We're so fucking crazy, i love her! She's just so "FUCK THE WORLD!" haha. She wants me, i know it! haha, i always have fun when i'm with her, (except for that one show.... yeah....) but she was there for me and restrained me from hurting myself. I love her back. <33

Clear

2005-04-05T01:29:26Z

Back to that hell hole aka lakewood high. Oh well, just another year left. I hung out with dustin and alex and Eric today. Finallly talked Eric into playing the GI-angle. Visited Ryan and Nate at work, joked around about the 12 year olds who come everyday because Ryan is quote, "SO LIKE OMG FINE!". And of course they commented on his hair that I DID!!! I swear, my hair dye and sheers are gold. haha losers, what could anyone possibly see in Ryan? lol. Party at his house this weekend =). (although I give up drinking for a while so I can finally think clearly and not be a depressed drunk like I have been). Ryans been a good friend though, he tries to get my mind of things and take me out of my room for a change. <333

Last night I sat in my bathtub with Michael and cut his hair (no we weren't taking a bath together that's just gross.) We were literally in a 3 inch high pool of his hair. It looks pretty cool though.

I'm sick of all this drama, so as long as I just go to school, come home, go to work, come home, and play my fucking guitar and help to solve drama between other people, i can forget about mine for a while. Shows are the only time when my mind is completely clear of everything. I guess that's why i've been going to so fucking many. Speaking of,

I AM *FUCKING* GHOST dipiazzas this weekend. dont miss this shit.

Bud is on his way, gotta show him the new song. If you guys are reading this, practice at Dustin's wednesday after school with Patty cakes. Bud dont forget the mic and amp this time, dont worry about the PA and monitors and all that shit, Pat's bringing his.